running away...

i guess i was running away all the time... to prevent myself from missing her i put my 100% focus on my work...i worked hard...i guess..


a lot of times my friends asked me... "You alright now?"

i would say yah...

today 3 people asked me again... i told the first 2.." i dunno"


the 3rd person too i said i dunno at first.

but..as she ask me about how i feel etc...and everything came back again...

i cry hell alot of shit just now... all the while i was running away from problem...

when ever i felt hurt..i would divert my attention to something else...

i would seal my heart "NUMB it"


thats why its not easy for me to fall for a girl...


i once ask her...haiz nvm...





now i really dun know she know that im going back.

even so...she got a girlfriend one i guess...

i dun wanna be a bastard(or im thinking too much)

but still what ever it is... i dun wanna disrupt her life...

yet...i really dunno.


all i know is.












i miss u like crazy.