找回我自己

its 11pm...today she suddenly called me...

i hang up tot she wanted to talk to me...
then she call again...and say: i got a few words... me and ex are back together...

i cried.
"On 17july 2008 she told me this again"
嘿~我和你说我失恋了
我要单身一段时间！
自由万岁！
你也做一个 " dear, i love u


long ago i expect that to happen...cause I'm not around + shes that kind of person who scared loneliness..

It's really such a waste, our thinking our dreams. everything. from small details... I'm looking for someone to setter down shes too.

come to think of it i already give up..after the break up...shes right.

"So what if she really love me? so what i really love her."

one day I'll leave.

I've been think a lot lately...

That is why I'm more prepared

we are too young...from the start she told me... to come back when i really can stay there for long...

is i insisted i wanna come back...after my attachment.

ever since the break up...almost 24hours I've been talking to friends...

my Boss also...

I don't know she will wait for me a not since now i can not be by her side...

haiz really really thought of her being my wife.

why? acting to rush?

no... is the thinking. "what we want in life"

we match in almost all aspect perfectly.

the only thing is "Distance"


Before that:

• I wanna come Beijing WORK
• I wanna become a Beijing PR (no harm right?)
• I wanna come Beijing study University

I wanna come Beijing work seriously is because for her.
PR partly because of her. but come to think of it no harm right?
University is always my dream. but since i got friends there why not.

i really miss her. tot shes not with me now...

I think time really past fast. in a months time from now. I will finish my work(Attachment)

then my 2months holiday. now to go there a not?

some suggest i don't go back as it will make me more sad.

but i think i need to go back to Find back myself 找回我自己

i hope next time when i review this post in future...everything will be better....

let time decide what road i should take...

亲爱的，我爱你。